Amends

"Amends" is the tenth episode of the third season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and is the forty-fourth episode altogether.

As Christmas comes to Sunnydale, Angel is tormented by the ancient force known as the First Evil, who poses as Angelus' past victims (mostly Jenny Calendar) in an attempt to force him to kill Buffy. When Buffy is pulled into Angel's dreams, she decides to help him.

Synopsis
Dublin 1838--Angel is dreaming of his past, where he kills a man that supposedly was indebted to him. When he wakes up, unable to fall asleep again, he walks the streets of Sunnydale and runs into Buffy. They exchange a few words and then Angel becomes frightened, seeing the ghost of the man who he killed in his dream. The next day, Buffy tells her friends about her freaky encounter with Angel. They fill each other in on holiday plans and then Oz shows up, ready to talk to Willow. He tells her how much he misses her and that he's willing to give their relationship another shot.

Buffy and her Mom go shopping for a Christmas tree and decide to invite Faith to Christmas dinner, but when Buffy suggests inviting Giles, Joyce becomes uncomfortable and immediately vetoes the idea. Angel's nightmares continue to haunt him, and he finally resorts to going to Giles for help. Wary of Angel, Giles keeps a loaded crossbow in hand, but still listens to Angel's explanation and questions of how he is back on Earth. Their conversation is cut short when Angel sees Jenny, and runs off.

Oz goes to talk with Willow. He explains that it's too painful to be apart from her, so he decides to give it another try with her.

In another one of Angel's dreams, he attacks a maid but as he finishes her off, he looks up and sees Buffy there in his dream. They both wake up, realizing that they're in each other's dreams. Buffy goes to Giles and they plan to research so they can find out what force is taking over Angel. Xander offers to help as well since saving Angel is a better option than being at home. Willow, having joined in on the research party, fills Buffy in on her efforts to get back with Oz.

Angel is still unable to sleep and encounters Jenny's spirit at the mansion. He tries to apologize, but she doesn't want to hear it; she just wants to make him suffer. He is then visited by the many ghosts of his victims, including the man and maid he had killed. Finally, nearly crazy from being reminded of what a monster he was, Angel begs for it to stop. Jenny offers him comfort and tells him to rest. At the library, Buffy also falls asleep and both she and Angel are in the same dream again. This time, the two are making passionate love on Buffy's bed. Looking over his shoulder, Buffy notices a creature with its eyes sewn shut just before Angel vamps out and bites her. They both wake up. Jenny tells Angel he needs to kill Buffy.

Giles has found out that the force that is taking over Angel is called The First. It's very powerful and impossible to kill. However, there are three priests (the creatures with their eyes sewn shut) which Buffy can kill, and hopefully put an end to the mental torment Angel is suffering from. Buffy and Xander visit Willy the Snitch, but he only says that The First may be underground. Oz arrives at Willow's house with videos and finds she has a bit more planned for the night. He tells her he's not ready to take their relationship that far and that she doesn't need to prove herself to him, which she's fine with and they just kiss.

At home, Buffy and her mom are trimming the tree when Faith shows up. She had refused Buffy's previous invitation saying she had a party to go to. However, there was no party. Buffy goes upstairs to her room to find that Angel is there waiting for her. Blind with the need to find peace of mind, he fights the urge to kill Buffy. As Jenny, unseen and unheard by Buffy, continues to goad him into doing so, a frantic Angel jumps headfirst out the window as a horrified Buffy looks on. Buffy leaves Faith in charge of watching her mom, while she goes to Giles for immediate help. At the mansion, Jenny tries to convince Angel that he must kill Buffy. When he has made it clear that he can't, he knows that his only other option is to kill himself with the sunlight, which Jenny says wasn't the plan, but it would nevertheless be acceptable.

After some more research, Buffy discovers that wherever the priests are, nothing will grow above or below. Buffy remembers a bunch of dead trees at the Christmas tree lot, though before she departs, Giles warns her that she may have to kill Angel again should he truly become dangerous. She goes there and in the middle of a circle of dead trees, she makes a hole in the ground which then leads to the priests. She tears the place and the priests apart, then encounters the First in Jenny's form. They attack each other verbally and then Buffy runs off to the mansion to save Angel from killing himself with the sun.

She finds him atop Kingman's Bluff, the sun only minutes away from rising. He tells her that he loves her and wants her so much that he'd be willing to lose his soul just to be with her. Buffy desperately wants him to come inside, but he believes very strongly that he is evil and he's got to be strong for once, and die. They yell, and hit each other, and cry and say how much they love one another. Buffy gives him his last chance to prove how strong he really can be and to come in from the sun. She tells him that if he really doesn't have a place on Earth then he can burn. Then, out of nowhere, snow begins to fall, covering the previously sunny and warm Sunnydale in a beautiful white Christmas, hiding the sun.

Willow and Oz wake up on Willow's bed (they were just sleeping) to the snow. Xander wakes up in a sleeping bag in his backyard covered in snow. Giles notices it from his apartment, while Faith and Joyce see it from the Summer's home. Buffy and Angel walk hand in hand together through the snow.

Starring

 * Sarah Michelle Gellar as Buffy Summers
 * Nicholas Brendon as Xander Harris
 * Alyson Hannigan as Willow Rosenberg
 * Charisma Carpenter as Cordelia Chase
 * David Boreanaz as Angel/Angelus/Liam
 * Seth Green as Oz
 * Anthony Stewart Head as Rupert Giles

Guest Starring

 * Kristine Sutherland as Joyce Summers
 * Saverio Guerra as Willy the Snitch
 * Shane Barach as Daniel / The First
 * Edward Edwards as Travis / The First
 * Cornelia Hayes O'Herlihy as Margaret / The First
 * Robia LaMorte as Jenny Calendar / The First
 * Eliza Dushku as Faith

Co Starring

 * Mark Kriski as Weatherman
 * Tom Michael Bailey Smith as Tree Seller Guy

Production

 * There has been a lot of discussion about the "miraculous" Christmas snowfall that prevents the Sun from rising and killing Angel. The official answer was made by the shows creator himself Joss Whedon who confirmed that the snow may have been the work of The Powers That Be, the supernatural forces that guided Angel's destiny in his spin-off series. This is told by Joss Whedon himself: "The snow [in Amends] was good... was it God? Well, I'm an atheist, but it's hard to ignore the idea of a "Christmas miracle" here... The fact is, the Christian mythos has a powerful fascination to me, and it bleeds into my storytelling. Redemption, hope, purpose, Santa, these all are important to me, whether I believe in an afterlife or some universal structure or not. I certainly don't mind a strictly Christian interpretation being placed on this ep by those who believe that -- I just hope it's not limited to that" (Joss Whedon, Dec 15 22:17 1998).


 * "The guys with weird flesh over their eyes" in this episode, Whedon explains, represented "some sort of creepy, kind of Jacob's Ladder-y thing," adding that "a deformed human is scarier than a big reptile with fangs" (Buffy the Vampire Slayer: The Monster Book).

Broadcast

 * The Mutant Enemy monster in the end credits wears a Santa hat and bells are heard when he says "Grrr Arrgh."

Deleted Scenes

 * Buffy's response to Joyce is a little longer in the original version:
 * Joyce: "You know, honey, I was thinking - maybe we should invite Faith to spend Christmas Eve with us?"
 * Buffy: "I'll ask her. Worst she can do is - well, the worst she can do is serious bodily harm, but she'll probably just say no."

Other

 * Joss Whedon has cited many times Buffy and Angel's fight on the hilltop as one of the best things he has ever written, especially the line, "It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man."


 * A sweepstakes commercial aired a week before this episode, which also served as an advertisement for it.


 * This episode is Angel-centric.

Quotes
Buffy - "Strong is fighting. It's hard and it's painful and it's every day. It's what we have to do, and we can do it together, but if you're too much of a coward for that, then burn." The First - "You think, you can fight me? I'm not a demon, little girl, I'm something that you can't even concieve, The FirstEvil, beyond sin, beyond death, I am the thing that darkness fears, you'll never see me but I am everywhere, in every being, every though, every drop of hate." Buffy - "Alright, I get it, you're evil. Do we have to chat about it all day?"

Angel - "Look, I'm weak. I've never been anything else. It's not the demon in me that needs killing, Buffy. It's the man."

Xander - "Angel? Weird? What are the odds?"

Willow - "Do you think something's wrong? Maybe you should tell Giles." Buffy - "No. I don't wanna bug Giles. He's still kinda twitchy when it comes to the subject of Angel." Xander - "Well, it must be that whole Angel-killed-his-girlfriend-and-tortured-him thing. Hey, Giles is pretty petty when it comes to stuff like that."

Buffy - "What about me? I love you so much... And I tried to make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help. And I hate it! I hate that it's so hard... and that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. I can't."

Continuity

 * While the characters talk about how warm it is they're wearing heavy winter clothing.


 * Buffy and Angel officially renew their relationship.


 * The area where Angel attempts suicide is the same area where Dark Willow will attempt to destroy the world in "Grave", at which time its name is finally revealed as Kingman's Bluff.


 * Although Joyce suggests that Faith spend Christmas dinner with her and Buffy, she quickly shoots down Buffy's suggestion that Giles join them. Apparently she is still feeling awkward following their "involvement" in "Band Candy".


 * The First Evil and the Bringers do not appear again until "Lessons", when it returns as the Big Bad of Season Seven.


 * While it is later made clear in Season Seven that The First cannot touch anything, The First as Jenny Calendar touches Angel and, while the touch is brief, his hair visibly moves. She also touches Giles, though he doesn't notice her at the time. (This would occur once more, in Lessons, when The First as Drusilla also touches Spike's hair.)


 * The final appearance of Jenny Calendar.


 * Cordelia refers to the events in this episode in "The Price".


 * The First's prediction "Sooner or later, you will drink her" ends up being accurate, since Angel drinks Buffy's blood in "Graduation Day, Part Two".


 * When Buffy encounters Angel in downtown Sunnydale she says she's on her way to buy a holiday gift for Willow from the magic shop, but she's walking away from the magic shop.


 * Buffy states that there are 14 million sq miles of sewer, although this may have been a comical exaggeration.


 * Oz refusing to sleep with Willow in this episode recalls his declining her offer to make out in "Innocence". Oz demonstrates again that he does not like doing things that he may want to do for the wrong reason. In this episode, Oz understands that Willow offers to sleep with him to show him that she is invested in their newly reestablished relationship, whereas in "Innocence", he believes she asks him to kiss her (largely) to make Xander jealous.


 * Oz asks Willow has she ever had the dream "where you're in a play, and you're right in the middle of it and you kinda don't know your lines or the plot?" Willow has had this dream, or rather nightmare, as seen the episode "Nightmares", it became a reality for her in the episode "The Puppet Show". Willow would have this nightmare again during the episode "Restless".


 * When Cordelia mentions Xander's family's "drunken Christmas fights", this is the first real hint in the series of Xander's unhappy home life, which is something that will be expanded on later in the series and become very significant in Season Six. Furthermore, Xander is explaining his "Christmas Tradition" to Willow, and it is Cordelia who remarks about his family's "drunken Christmas fights." Whedon himself claimed this to be an error in writing, as Willow and Xander have been best friends since childhood, and she already knows all about the Harris family. (This could be justified by saying that although Willow already knows about Xander's dysfunctional family, there are other people in earshot of the conversation who don't.)


 * The First has been the only being that has taken credit for Angel's return from the Acathla dimension, however, since it has been known to be a convincing deceiver, it could be lying about it. Angel could have been brought back by the Powers That Be or even the Senior Partners of Wolfram & Hart.

Music

 * Barry White - "Cant Get Enough of Your Love, Babe"
 * Christophe Beck - "Dreaming Of"
 * Christophe Beck - "Dublin"
 * Christophe Beck - "Magic Snow Music"
 * The Crystals - "He's a Rebel"
 * Johann Pachelbel - "Canon in D major" (before Angelus kills Margaret in 1883 in England)